Monday, 25 March 2013

Check up

I went back to hospital today for a follow up appt for my eyes. Once again, I had to have a lot of poking and prodding in my eyes, which has left them feeling very sore at the moment. The consultant told me that the drops have not worked sufficiently well enough and I have a different prescription. He told me that I dont have glaucoma at the moment as there is no nerve damage, but I'm at risk of this, if it was to remain untreated or I'm not on the right drops. From what he says, I will be on the drops long term and may have to take a combination. Anyway back for another checkup in 2-3 months time.

Wednesday, 20 March 2013

Spring Equinox


Image from www.mindbodyandspirit.co.uk
I wanted to say blessings for the spring equinox, a time to say goodbye to winter and welcome spring, although it doesnt seem like that that at the moment. A time for rebirth and renewals, apt given my thoughts on the changes I want to make in my life. Hopefully we will see the end of winter and by the end of the month. Looking forward to the light
Blessings x 

Tuesday, 19 March 2013

moving forward

Many, many thanks for all the kind and thoughtful comments on my last post. We are slowly coming to terms with the loss of our dog, it will take time and we all miss her. There is something about opening the front door and seeing a waggy tail. We are pet less at the moment, beloved says he never wants another dog, I dont really believe him but it will be sometime before we have anything else. The twists and turns that our life is taking at the moment means that we are better off not having such a committment. So whats been happening.......

We had a get a new car, not what we had planned, but we now have a car that is far more efficient and economical and also only £30 a year road tax, cant be bad. Things are going on for both beloved and I at work. Beloved has been transferred to another branch, not his choice, but either that or redundancy, the problem is that it is further away and he will need some form of transport, its too far to cycle. Not sure what we will do, its always one step forward, two back. I dont normally mention my work, I work for the Probation Service and we have the sword of privatisation hanging over us, it will be going ahead and we will probably all end up working for serco!!! Worrying times ahead, but my tactic at the moment is not to think about it otherwise I would make myself ill.

I've been reading several comments recently about the very 'extreme' frugal living blogs and how they affect people in terms of  making people feel guilty for spending money. I've stopped reading these blogs, some of them can seem quite judgemental and as I have commented on other blogs, I dont want to wear a hair shirt. We all spend our money of different things and have a million and one reasons why we do so. We do have treats, little luxuries and days out, these are all budgetted for and we are still paying off the debts at a steady pace. I am wanting to focus on the here and now and what is important to me, hence no longer beating myself up that we do spend money at times.

Given the uncertainties with work and focusing on living life how we want to, has got me thinking about the future and what I want to do. For the time being, I will stay at work to see what pans out with the privatisation. What I am thinking about are plans for myself. I want to do a bit of a garden makeover and I want to learn more about permaculture, this is something that really interests me and I would like to incorporate this into our garden. My spiritual path is developing and after spending a lot of time on a winding,wiggly path, I have reached the point of being certain in what direction I am heading. There is so much to learn and absorb, it is exciting and I want to spend more time on this path and my development. This is all part of my attempts to live in the here and now, but I do still dream!!

Blessings x